Tests 8-12

OV Test 8- Negative
OV Test 9 - Negative
OV Test 10 - Negative
OV Test 11 - Negative
OV Test 12 - Positive, maybe. It was a very faint line. We'll try and then I will see what tonight's test says.

#7

OV Test #7 - Negative

Still waiting for those two purple lines so we can make a baby.

#6

OV Test #6 - Negative.

OV Tests # 4 & 5

OV Test #4 - Negative
OV Test #5 - Negative

Will take another one at 10 p.m. tonight.

OV Tests #2 & 3

OV Test #2 on Friday - negative

OV Test #3 on Saturday - negative

These were expected. :)

OV Test #1

I took my first ovulation test last night. I knew it wouldn't say I was ovulating, but according to the instructions I was supposed to start taking the tests yesterday.

It was negative.

I am also continuing to take my temperature each morning before I get up.

We'll see.

A Good Week

I really thought I would be bummed out about the news I realized on Sunday. Actually I am really good. I am constantly praying the prayer at the top of this blog. "God if it's your will, and if it's not, comfort me and teach me what you want me to learn." I am finding comfort in the word of God and in my prayer time.

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God. Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." Matthew 5:3-10

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Matthew 6:25-34

I have spent a lot of time in Matthew recently.

Once I start taking my daily tests I will update more.

Another Month

Well, today I started my P. So I have another month to lose more weight. My goal is lose 10-15 lbs. I also bought an ovulation kit to help me detect when I am ovulating. I already warned C that he might need to "perform" in a few weeks. We both laughed. I was a little bumbed because this most likely means I will be 29 or older now when I have a child. My plan was to be 28 years old. But as I am constantly reminding myself it's not my plan - it's God's plan. More later.

T- minus - 2 days

On Sunday I am going to take a pregnancy test if I have not started my P. I am supposed to start on the 13th - Sunday. Last month I was very anxious and nervous and every other day beginning 4 days before my missed P I took a pregnancy test. This month I am very calm and prepared that it will probably take another month. Either way I am praying that God comfort me and prepare me in the ways necessary. My thought is if I do not end up "knocked up" this month it will give me another 3-4 weeks to lose more weight which can only be better for when I do have a bun in the oven. (I have to have a positive out look for both scenarios to stay sane and happy)

This morning I have felt slight cramping, low. I usually have horrible cramps, but it doesn't feel like this at all. Last night I noticed my breasts were very sore to the touch. Again, I don't know if this is because I might be Pregnant or if it is "that time of the month." Another strange thing was I kind of freaked out for no reason last night. C and I were trying to figure out what we wanted for dinner (after we looked for a new car to buy- yea). We stopped by a deli, went in and they were about to close so we left and pulled up to a new place which ended up being a bar so we left. Then I started demanding that C decide where we should eat because I was sick of making decisions. I pulled up to his favorite restaurant, he eats there 3-4 times per week (sick, I know) and there was a wait. I was completely rude and said to C as I walked out "come on lets go." He then told me over and over and over again how rude I was and that I should have handled that better. I was so mad. We pulled up to the grocery store and started to walk in as he continues to tell me how rude I was. I freak out again and go back to the car and say "well then we won't have dinner." He says he will not mention it again. We go inside get chips and salsa and a frozen pizza. I know the healthiest dinner option. He continues to remind me how rude I was. You have to also know that C never does this. He never reprimands me on my actions. We are both usually very even keel. So then I start to feel very guilty and bad for my reaction.
I was very confused why I was getting all worked up over something so silly. Maybe I'm preggers - wouldn't that be wonderful! :)

Long story - well long. We went into the store got our food and ate it well before we would have if we stayed that the restaurant. And we spent about $20 less - which is always good.
Whew.

Kicking the Caffeine Habit

In my last post I explained that I stopped drinking caffeine. In March I started reading in my pre-pregnancy book that you should not drink caffeine while you are pregnant. I have already heard from so many friends and family that when you become pregnant you already feel very tired and worn out because your body is working so hard to grow a baby. I knew I was addicted to caffeine, particularly coffee, but I had no clue how bad it was. I was trying to be smart by kicking my habit even before getting knocked up thinking it would be even more difficult then.

So I decided I would ween myself off of coffee first. My job was ramped up to a completely different level in Nov. 2006. We were planting a church and my responsibilities and work load was almost tripled. I was actually doing about 3 main jobs. I quickly realized that coffee would help me very much through the almost sleepless year. Oh yeah, I also have a part time job in computer work. I know, I'm crazy. So my one cup of coffee in the morning turned into one big cup of coffee in the morning, and then into one really big cup of coffee in the morning (I mean a huge cup of coffee). It is really funny because I kept telling myself - "It's only one cup a day." Yeah Right! It was probably equivalent to 4 or 5 regular cups of coffee. Then I would have another cup in the afternoon/evening if when I had to work really late into the night (which was a lot).

So anyway I began to slowly ween myself off of this irresistible drink which is really just a legal drug. I only allowed myself to have one real cup of coffee in the morning and then a cup of hot green tea in the early afternoon. The next week I had one cup of half-caff in the morning and a cup of hot green tea in the early afternoon. The next week I had one cup of decaf in the morning and a cup of hot green tea in the early afternoon. The following week I only had one cup of hot green tea if I needed it. Then I only allowed myself to have a cup of decaf on Sunday mornings when I had to get up so early for the services. Even though I did this I still had horrible headaches every day for 2 weeks and I was irritable and moody. It was crazy. The thing that really worries me, and makes me realize this is more than just drinking coffee, is that I crave it every day. Fortunately I resist these urges, but not a day goes by that I think just if I could have a cup of coffee. Not to wake up in the morning but just because I want it. I guess this is how it is with any addiction.

I am so glad I quit coffee then. I have not had a cup of coffee in 2 months. Yea! No headaches! And I can wake up in the morning on my own!

The Past

We got married in 2003 and knew we always wanted a family, and our plan was to wait 5 years. In January we went on a vacation and started discussing how we were both feeling ready to start a family. It is truly amazing how both of our hearts were ready at the same time. God is so cool in how things come together. We prayed and talked quite a bit and decided we would start trying in May knowing it would probably take about 6 months to a year to get pregnant (even though I really wanted it to happen right away - I always thought having a baby in Feb. would be a great time). So, in March I bought a pre-pregnancy book and started planning. I changed some of my eating habits (which is great, because as of now I've lost 15 lbs.) kicked my caffeine habit - I'll talk about this more later, started drinking more water, lengthened my daily prayer/quiet time (which I am learning a lot from), and started taking my daily basil body temperature (I did forget a few days in the first month though).

I was starting to get so excited, and could not wait until May came. When May arrived - Operation Baby Making. This is the fun part. I can never explain how close my husband and I have become (not necessarily the obvious reasons). Our communication has improved, and we are so exited about being parents one day. We pray more together, and understand where we are coming from with different things. It's really funny when I try to be in charge of our marriage - things get a bit rocky, but as soon as I put Christ back in the center - it just makes sense. It doesn't matter that I have always known this, I guess I just like to be in charge. God is constantly reminding me that I'm not - He is. Now I can say honestly I am glad he is God and I'm not. :)

I was supposed to start my P on June 7 and didn't so I took a pregnancy test - negative. I waited two more days and took another one - negative. Waited three more days - negative. I ended up starting on June 13. So we are trying this month again, and I will take another test on July 13 (Sunday). I am completely cool if it doesn't happen this month because I know God has a plan and I accept it. We'll see.

Dear God,
Thank you for the gift of life. Thank you for all the blessings you have given to me. You are awesome and almighty. Please continue to do your work in C and I. Give me the comfort that you have a plan and it is the right plan. Ease my stress level and help me understand if things don't happen when I want them too. I love you. Amen.

The Beginning

I am starting this blog for me. I don't think anyone will read it, more or less this blog is my journal. I tend to do better with things on the computer then keeping up with writing in a journal. I do pretty well, but this is a new adventure for me. I love trying new things. I am very excited about this.